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    A Castro Street Bar

    2015 - 02.09

    I see you sitting at the Castro Street bar,

    Drinking to change your paradigm

    As you drink you slide down into your seat

    As the alcohol loosens your spine.

    Why are you here?

    You’re supposed to be on the wagon.

    Not pulling it.

    I see in your eyes and in your face

    You’d do anything to get out of this place

    From this point it seems so unfair

    And the bottom of the glass has caught your stare.

    Underneath the buzz you have planned

    What to do when you escape this land.

    You’ll leave the man who loves you the most.

    But that’s not the point or the view.

    You must go somewhere to find your health

    And to it be true.

    Where you go from that point in time

    Will be up to you.

    Back to the butterfly that you are

    Flying so free, what will you be?

    And everyone will see your beauty Shine.

    What will you do with your new found time?


    I Can’t Remember.

    2015 - 01.25


    One foggy morning, that’s all

    Another day, same gray pall.

    Seems my mind has come undone

    Yesterdays over, tomorrow hasn’t begun.


    I sit in a deep cloudy trance

    Can’t get up and join the dance.

    I feel stuck, sorta’ in between

    I look at the day what does it mean?


    So much has happened in my small life

    Populated with incidences and strife.

    But as the days go by, I feel somewhat numb

    I forgot where I came from.


    I can’t remember, no I can’t recall

    Hardly anything, anything at all.


    The first dream was to get free

    And chase the schemes I did see.

    I saw too much, that can be said

    Deep into the mist, I was led.


    Surrounded by the whispering trees

    That seem to know more than me.

    I sit quietly on a rock

    Trying to pick my minds lock.


    What was it that you said?

    Tell me again, refresh my head.

    What was the journey’s goal?

    Seems like madness took its toll.


    I can’t remember, no I can’t recall

    Hardly anything, anything at all.


    I’m so deep, into shades of black

    Stole my memories, I want them back.

    I must feel my own way  home

    I stand up, my body moans.


    Is this something that comes with age?

    In the audience now, not on the stage

    No longer calling the shots

    Suffering the same fate as Lot.


    Please tell me, make me understand

    Why I no longer hear the band.

    What was that thing called my youth?

    Was anything learned, is there any truth?


    I can’t remember, no I can’t recall

    Hardly anything, anything at all.


    An Unfinished Story

    2015 - 01.25


    Long Distance time went by so fast

    We weathered storms that didn’t last.

    I spent my time spinning words and rhymes

    Wanting to to touch your face, all of the time.


    And bring you some April flowers

    In a gentle space that was ours.

    But life stepped in and drove us apart

    With all the things that can break your heart.


    It was such a brief bright flame

    And love in my soul still remains

    Now your life is tightly locked

    My ship, has been dashed on the rocks.


    And the time of life never stands still

    Even, with all my will

    What had to be, will be

    You got better, now you’re free.


    I still dream of all the good times

    That your smile put in my mind.

    As I walked through Hell screaming

    Of you, I kept dreaming.


    In the beginning, I saw our end

    My Angel, Heaven sent

    We were both broken

    Reluctant eyes were opened.


    We had the folly that lovers dare

    And now your so scared

    I didn’t mean, to chase you away

    And now, it’s another day.


    Back into life, I was tossed

    Paying such a dear cost.

    I didn’t mean to make you cry

    Or sit alone and sigh .


    Someday, we both may laugh

    And separate the wheat from the chaff

    Smiling in a new day

    Finally finding our own ways



    Stellar Seas

    2015 - 01.13

    A winter day, but the sun came back
    To dance for a while before turning black.
    My mind is just starting to compose
    Some kind of new, typical prose.
    I hear a sound coming from over the hill
    A silent train is moving and another one still.
    Can’t keep my mind from drifting away
    Check my tether, I don’t want to stray.
    It’s all too much, yes indeed I see
    And it ain’t got nothin’ to do with me.

    Drifting now, in skies of Blue
    Half belongs to me and half belongs to you.
    I can’t tell you when, but I can tell you why
    Stop those tears, you don’t have to cry.
    Somewhere on the sea is where you’ll find me
    Escaping the invisible prison that I see.
    No longer held, no longer in the sway
    Floating free getting, outa’ the way
    On one hand I can count all I know
    The clock keeps spinning but time is so slow.

    Long past the point of turning back
    Keep going forward, adjust my tack
    Move the sails, pull the rudder in
    A brand new course to now  begin
    I got the strength, but I don’t have the time
    It has to work, It has to rhyme.
    Other ships are on this course
    I’m shouting Hail! Until my voice is hoarse
    But they cannot hear, the waves are too strong
    Hands are getting numb from holding on.

    Now in some eddy, away from the rocks
    I see many doors, but they are all locked.
    Keep on going, in uncharted seas
    Hoping that fortune smiles on me.
    And again, the skies are so Blue
    Showing me more, than I ever knew
    Ricochet between brand new days
    I just keep trying, there is a way.
    Steer by stars whispering sounds
    Pray that you live to say what you’ve found.


    The Moon We Both See

    2014 - 12.19

    Been out to sea for so long, drifting to and fro

    Weathered hurricanes that no one saw

    My course, plotted by sun and stars

    Zig Zagging through life with an uncertain destination.


    I hope we both look at the same moon.

    While it hangs in the sky above us

    Like each other, out of reach but still influencing

    Beaming love through different skies.


    The waves slapping at my boat

    Echoes of your laughter fills my dreams

    I toss and turn in the night

    Then awake to another day.


    I know dry land is near

    For I have seen the birds

    Flying on the edge of their perimeters

    The sorrow filled cries of the gulls reminds me of what’s missing.


    The sailing must continue, for I am closer

    To the end, than the beginning

    The helm bows left and right

    And the sparkle on the water is a perfect reflection of your eyes.


    So many ports where the ways of the world

    Gallup frantically, back and forth on the horizon

    Each is different, Each one beckons.

    A lot of water has passed under this boat.


    And no one hears my tears

    Which will one day raise the ocean

    And over power my small life

    With the fate of lovers who stare at the same moon.





    Never Could Say Goodbye.

    2014 - 11.07

    It was a long, long year
    I was frightened, had so much to fear.
    Remembering…the very last time, I kissed, I kissed your face
    And no one, no one….has ever, has ever…taken your place.

    And I started to hide
    From the pain inside.
    I’m sorry, sorry that I failed
    And ran my life, oh I ran ran my life, right off these old rails.

    I tried so hard, to make it on through
    Thinkin’ about nothing, thinkin’ about nothin’ but you.
    And praying, praying, praying.
    Could you hear, could you hear what I was saying?

    Because in my dreams now, dreams are all I have
    That’s where, That’s where, I always hear you laugh.
    You told me to save myself, or I could die….
    And I did, baby I tried, I tried….And I tried.

    Never could think, but I could dream
    Because that’s what you are to me.
    A dreamer on my road, on my road
    Nothin’ left, Nothin’ left to show.

    When I have good thoughts
    About the time we bought
    In the eye of the Hurricane, in the eye of the Hurricane
    No one’s to blame, No one’s to blame, No ones to blame.

    Baby hold on, You gotta’ be strong
    You been gone too long. Just gone too long
    All alone in a castle with no view
    And no matter what, I will always love you.

    Always Love…you…Yeah…Love… you…Yeah…Love you…
    Oh Baby, baby, baby, you know that’s true…..



    A Change Of Season

    2014 - 10.04

    I have been quiet in my life for so long, just trying to be strong.
    There is all this love in me with nowhere to go, it’s about time, yeah I know.
    Summer has turned to autumn as my fears ran past, I pray that my love may last.
    There is this special something in the corner of my mind, something that is so fine.
    Words as they are cannot describe, Not mere words, no not even mine.

    It was those colors that split the sky, shards of light in my mind.
    And the sweet gift of wisdom given just to me, is why I am still free.
    Time seemed to go nowhere, heavy burdens I did bear.
    Sliding with the rain coming down, alone in this empty town.
    And still you’re been in the corners of my mind. Alive in my rhymes.

    And I know you can’t put a bridle on the wild horse of love, or cage a cooing dove.
    I would ride the hills, I still have my will
    To get through these darkened days and not lose myself in life’s futile maze
    A frightened ride through the stormy tears, so many over all these years.
    And to arrive and see your special smile, is worth all these bitter trials.

    So set aside your burdens love give it a try, don’t have any reason to ask why.
    Gray skies will be blue as all your dreams come true.
    As we awaken from this dream, wondering where have we been?
    I believe in the future of our lives, I know how hard you have tried.
    There is a piece of you in my heart, I stay strong while we’re apart.


    Lament of the Dying Rose

    2012 - 08.31


    If I had to do it all over again

    Babe, I’d do it all for you

    If I had to wait for ten thousand years

    Babe, I’d even do that too.


    Well, everybody’s got somethin’

    That they’re lookin’ forward to

    I’m lookin’ forward to when I can do it all again

    And babe, I’ll do it all for you. 


    Well, if I had my way tomorrow or today

    Babe, I’d run circles all around

    I’d sing to the wind, do a somersault and spin

    I’d even dance on the ground.


    Well, everybody gets their hour

    Everyone gets their time

    Well, everybody gets the chance

    To finish their own rhymes.


    When the time arrives when I can be in your life

    I will be stronger, straight and thinking of you.

    Well, I don’t need money, I just need a day that’s sunny

    Baby, and my days are gonna’ come true.


    Well, you cut me like a jigsaw puzzle

    I am a walkin’ wreck, sick in the head

    You pushed my heart through my backbone

    But enough of that has been said.


    Well, if I’m ever standin’ steady

    And doing what I really want to do

    Well, I tell you my long time lover

    I’d do  it again just for you. 


    I’m just restin’ just waiting for health to shine

    And, baby I’m just sittin’ on the shelf

    Look in your mind, that’s where I am

    Pacing and whispering to myself.




    Love Rose

    Enroute Communiqué~

    2009 - 03.21

    I felt the portal close, the inward shine of a reflection back onto itself
    Musings, too deep to be heard, can you hear the rustle of a diamond turning?
    Sailed so quickly through the storm ridden seas to this point of perspective.
    Always listening to the sirens voice, Should I lash myself onto the mast for protection?
    Are there treacherous rocks I just don’t see?
    The road too, has always been rocky
    As I slammed my soul through all those places
    Looking for someone to love.

    If I could only reach you on the dreamscape, I would tell you these things
    I would dance them into existence…
    Kneeling before you, I would offer up mere words, hoping you will accept this simple gift.

    Know that you are cared for,
    Know that I understand your Rhymes,
    Know that it is fortune upon us,
    Know this all, deep inside,
    Know that we’re both lonely,
    Know that we have some time,
    Know that it’s bigger than us,
    Know this all deep inside.

    I do not drink another’s wine without invitation,
    My grapes are still on the vine
    Luscious, begging to be picked
    And tasted by your perfect mouth.
    What is the path that is true?
    If tragedy falls, it won’t be on you.
    I scream at the Heavens “Who dares to trap this bird”?
    Try to stop destiny, it is so absurd.

    Our collective madness accumulates quickly
    Like a sponge, filled to capacity
    Love drips around the edges of sanity
    So much love, tumultuous, wavelike
    How long can you take it?
    How long before the camels straw?
    Where we watch grandiose dreams
    Sink back into the night.

    I am trying to stay with it, tracking the progress of your Star in the skies
    Being just another planet that wants to orbit in the gravity well of your love
    I look in my bag of tricks and with you I am found wanting
    What can a man offer a Star after all?
    The shadow of doubt has eclipsed you
    Removing my light from the scene
    Maybe you will wake up
    And find out that it’s just a dream.